The Day I took '09 2 trial 4 defamation of character

i'm only postin this cuz D told me 2, so aite whatever.lol...its nothin now, kinda but ayyyye


New year. Different struggle. Same struggle. Time to admit it. The preacherman said stop looking at the folk point the fingers at yourself. So is it that time? Where I bow my head humbly and admit to my own foolishness. Immaturities and such. The one thing i’ve gripped tighter than parasucos on a fat chick. No disrespect to that beauty because I’m becoming her. So I ask thine self no bible in hand, no holy water on fingertips, just me and my mirror and my tear stained lenses yet again. Yet again. yet

again. I’ve come to the train track where the lights are nearing. But I don’t want to move for some reason I just don’t want to move to the next stage of life. Call me crazy but the laughter is where I find salvation even when my days are angelic.A(hhh) the doctor’s calling you now, so step forward with the gown tied tight, for my life. So what’s the verdict I ask, you’re not ready someone replies. You’re not ready. But neither was he before. And so someone told me the same later. How can this be, doc?

22. I got it right? right? Wrong. The age don’t matter, and we aint talking aaliyah status. And so for once I start to believe its not you it is…me. Who cant get it right. Who cant find the switch to peace or a fake utopia. Lead me to the stream so I satisfy my scratchy throat. Coulda said quench my thirst but the brain said don’t be cliché. He said something else. Something that hurt a lil more. Make you wanna end the conversation without a good. Damn I forgot the bye. Can’t be mad at the truth. Because it wouldn’t hurt if it were a lie. So you take it like a rapist and let it marinade like the victim. Heaven forbid it happens again. So you write it out because you don’t want to be a two-time felon. Two times is like a repeated cycle. Wrap it up put a condom on it tell your girl to birth control it cause aint no babies coming this way. Close your canal and save it for a later date. But at this point of life you cant even get past a kiss. You can’t even get past a smile. Just get past. Do like you used to proclaim, keep It movin. But when your feet are planted in fresh cement where the hell you going?

Back to the beginning and not to Amy’s black. Don’t black out, don’t back out, because maybe it’s not you, the kid. Maybe it’s the shit in your solar system that cant get on your axis. So you try to answer the million dollar question yet again yet again yet
Again. So why you aint got?

Because I aint got, no wait because yall don’t want. Yea I said it in the plural form speakin to you and your kind, not the ones that’s on they weezy f. with the jeans tighter round the ankles than mines are to my waiste. And they matching boxers, see how they go with my nike air max boots? Naw boo, I don’t want to see that’s for the little boys that don’t know better, not the ones who think they showing me what they working with, work with this and then we can talk. Like adults,

But oh wait, remember, kid, this is what has been questioned to you. Which one are you?so I ask you the jury, why cant I be both. Woman and kid. Woman and fun. Woman and Adina. And so I admit it in the form to which it belongs I am Adina but who is she? Because you say one, thing, she admits the other, and her over there says, she’s this, but when will the right answer be a reflection of the truth and so I write my first of the new year wondering will I ever step out of girlfriend’s heels that are too high for her stature and recognize that it might just be me and not you or you or you or whoever you are presenting me with the question I am no longer able to duck like your president at a Iraqi news conference. So mr. Bush tell me how do you get your reflexes so fast? And what will you say to the American people as their president one last time. Not a damn.